We stayed on the property my dad grew up on. My grandfather, Kennith Kameo Higashimachi had built a little studio on the lot of the main house, after his wife Hisa passed away in the 1960's. He lived into his 90's as a working artist, a prolific painter, world traveler and teacher.
My grandparents were born; him-1901, her-1902 and had an arranged marriage. Hisa was from Samari class and Kennith was from Farmer class. Not an ideal match for Hisa but she was the youngest of 11 children. By the time her parents got to arranging her marriage it was not such a big deal. She passed away before my parents were married so we never met her.

Cleaning out his stuff I learned more about him than I could have imagined; about his life and my DNA. As I looked through his dusty stuff, I thought about how much we had in common. We both appreciated art, travel, beautiful hand-writing, flower arranging, painting, and the process of documention. By the size of his body of work I know he had a serious dedication to his creativity and spent many hours a day in this process.
In his studio there were many boxes of neatly tied bundles of sketches, documenting his travels, not to mention a lot of photos.
Just when I said to Eric, I don't think he made it to Africa, I opened a sketchbook and he was standing with the a pygmy tribe.
He was a prolific painter and studied at the Chicago Art Institute along with Georga O'Keffe. He had two very distinguishing styles, one traditional Sumi brush painting.
Stacking his art and books into neat little piles, I saw a partial mirror to my own life. I saw similarities of what had been important to me and certain aesthetics I had naturally incorporated into my work. Organic forms, color, composition, mine were more abstract but we were both studying the subtle beauty and the balance in our art.
Does our DNA predetermine what we do and who we are? I wondered this while sorting through his stuff.

On the right is one of my painted enamel brooches.
And to my surprise he even dabbled in making some jewelery. Below are some Bakelite rings he carved. Notice the gold ring on the bottom left is a recent design of mine I currently have in my show case.
In reflecting on my family DNA, I felt sad that I would not be able to hand this lineage down to baby o. Maybe that is why people have such an urge to have biological kids. So when they rummage through the family photos they too can find bits and pieces of them self. A line back in time that ties them to their families.
But then again, what if I would not have taken the trip to Hawaii to clean out Tutu's stuff, would it make any of my talents and interest any less important or true? Would I have even known how much we had in common. Is it chance anyway? And is the reason this was so important to me based on the memory of knowing him and having him in my life?
We will have to share with baby o the remarkable way one's genes come through no matter if you know your true biological family or not. We will share stories of where her talents might have come from. Think of all the great things I have inherited that I will never know the source.
In one of the boxes I found this amazing photo. I am assuming it is a family photo but of who? I will have to ask my dad to see if he knows.

8 comments:
Hi April and Eric,
Thanks for your thoughtful and amazing look back at your family history in Hawaii. It appears as if you have faced the nature versus nurture dilemma even before you are parents!
In my experience, that ususally comes up around the teenage years when you are trying your hardest to figure out has happened to turn your darling child into someone manifesting behavior that you thought only surfaced in other parents' children...
But then adoption adds another layer of depth to the discussion. Your insights imply that you have already realized that there is never one clear answer to "explain" anyone - and accepting the element of "mystery" about any or all of us gives your child the tools to accept life as it comes: we don't have to know the answers to everything - some things just don't matter - this is your path and aren't we all lucky!
Trying to patiently wait for Baby O,
Elaine and Anu
Hi April,
I really enjoyed your post and the beautiful art of your grandfather. How very special.
Wow. What incredible sketches your grandfather made. And your ponderings are fascinating and emotional, for a conversation later. Thank you so much for sharing your process. I can't wait to see the darling...someday...xoxa
What an amazing post. Thank you for sharing all those pictures and thoughts.
You're an amazing artist and baby O will inherit all of your passion and zest and all your gifts and values.
That you are willing to think about all these things shows what an incredible mother you already are.
Tina
I have to say I love this post more than any blog I've ever read so far. Thanks for sharing your memories and thoughts. It is such a gift that you received from your grandfather and the rest of your family. We all receive different gifts in this life. Perhaps "baby o" won't have a rich gift of the past, but instead the future?
I'm speechless. This post touched my heart. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your family's history.
Baby O is going to have one amazing family!
Pamela
That is so awsome for you to have that experience... a few years back my Great great Grandfathers home was turned into a musieun and I know how cool it is to walk through and see myself in the photo's on the walls, or to find that the silly little quirks that I have , I may have come buy honestly....
Thanks for sharing that with us
Blessings John
April,
This was an amazing post. Baby O will be so proud to have a wonderfully talented mama, regardless of what unique talents she may discover of herself later on.
Ivy
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