13 February 2009

Ahhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrgh!****

I remember last year on Valentine's Day I mailed in our application to commit to our agency. We had been thinking about adoption for awhile but that was the day I really committed. Well one year later we are still waiting and Kyrgyzstan still has not re-opened. It doesn't seem hopeless but every month we hear that the next month looks positive. It is so frustrating!

I have recently starting looking into changing countries, I mean how long can I really wait? I had opted to do adoption over fertility treatments, even thought my chances of the fertility route looked really good. I guess I should say both my husband and I really WANTED to adopt and felt like that was the right option for us. BUT boy government does NOT make it easy. I am so frustrated! I already say that, but I think it deserves a second mention. Ahhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrgh!****

What to do.....what to do???

I really don't feel like doing another stack of 12" of paperwork or getting mentally prepared to adopt from another country or writing more checks. If we switch we would probably stay in Central Asia and move to Kazakhstan. Any thoughts from you all is appreciated.

The rain is pouring down tonight in Northern California, it is comforting and cozy all at once. I do look forward to more tangible movement in this journey to parenthood.

Maybe NEXT month?

2 comments:

Mel said...

I too feel your sorrow. We are in the same position as you, but waiting for our dossier to hit Kyrgyz. We are still holding on for faith and know this time isn't easy.
We wish you and your family much cares and prayers and know you will do what is best for your family. Keep your chin up.
*hugs*

Monica said...

It really is so hard to know the right path. I have been feeling your same sentiments and yet our journey is different. We do have things in common tho. We too made the serious decision to pursue Kyrgyzstan last Valentine's Day and we have recently been considering other options as well. I'm not feeling I have the energy to switch countries. If we do something different it might be older child domestic adoption or foster/adopt. But for now we're still hopeful because when I think of ALL of us in this same spot waiting on the K gov't to start allowing IA again I just can't believe that we are ALL on the wrong path?!? Things have GOT to start moving again to join babies with families. That is my hope and prayer.